lets see... i moved...
i keep saying that to people... and then i just stop... really what is the big deal about moving... who knows... but i also want my life to be different... not that i think my life is bad... but with moving... i want other changes as well. hmm.
the day of the move my friends car got a flat. i was borrowing the car to move. i returned it with a spare :( two days later i decided i didn't have any real friends. i made a plan to move to turkey... live on an organic farm. and learn to make soap. talked to a friend and changed my irrational mind... making soap in turkey isn't irrational... and it would be great if it happens... but thinking i don't have any real friends is... the day after that i borrowed Olivia's (my new roommate) bike and left it in front of the apartment... it got stolen. :(
last night i went to yoga. centered city is on the corner of 9th and 9th. I thought the 1st class is always free... I was wrong... but the coolest thing happened... a nice woman said, "I would rather you take this class then go home because you didn't bring the money"... and she refused to let me try to pay her back...
It was the best yoga class... mostly because I was SO grateful for the generosity of a stranger! so much of the angst and animosity was totally lifted by that kind act... I prayed for that stranger lady later... and anytime I run into her I will think she is the kindest person I have ever met! Things like that make me want to carry around an extra handful of cash just in case... because its just money... but money can totally help a pissy me change... shift to an at peace grateful me...
I haven't been feeling super awesome lately... I don't know... I don't even know how to express it...so I don't... but it is partially why I haven't really blogged... i have not felt like expressing... my boss keeps saying she thinks i have p.t.s.d. from my accident... i am almost convinced...
yoga...
Since my accident - the one where my face hit a truck... :) --- I haven't done real yoga.. it is really healing - and for me helps me get in tune... feel connected...
thanks kind stranger lady... thank you!
but i live in a new apartment. i have been to a new yoga studio that i like. i have the most accommodating cool job...and... even if they don't always call me back when i want them to... i have good friends.
i have a good life... it is always evolving... and i like it that way.
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If you call me I will call you back. :) Don't forget about me. I am your friend, too. :)
Tanya,
I'm sorry you are feeling bad ("bad" is a very general description, but it seemed to encompass most of the more specific emotions I'm sensing from your post). I hope that you will soon feel un-bad for a long time. I'll utter a prayer with this request.
For some reason, your post made me want to forgive someone I've been rather annoyed with lately.
Sometimes you just feel down. It is all about the ups and downs in life and how we deal with them. Plus, it makes you think about those small acts of kindness. You never know how it touches someone.
I'm thankful for your YOga Fairy. I like her! And your right yoga is wonderful. Since I've moved, I there isn't a prenatal Yoga instructor here and I MISS IT :( Me and the baby.
Body and Mind really do work togehter. We love you Tanya, and Moving always feels like it is full of adventure. HAVE FUN|!
Well, I just love you to pieces and I'm so glad that work with me in our cool, accomodating job.
i hope you do come to turkey with me :)
and make soap.
your friend,
god
:)
i've started doing yoga lately, and I firmly believe that it has saved my neck/headaches/spine/stress. I really have you to owe for it all...for my first yoga experience in an industrial carpeted flat next to the dusi canal in PMB.
so, thank you :)
I'm glad your life doesn't suck. I know what you mean about moving, and then wanting other things to be different as well...I've been there. I realized it was time to stop saying "I just moved..." when I realized it had been a year. Yikes.
you all are great... thanks for allowing me to induldge in the little ways that i do...
and... um... chalice... my blog is not a place for you to analyze me... its the place where i analyze me... thanks.
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