Monday, June 30, 2008

i can handle the complicated

In the pool locker room today…
Girl 1: i am on the swim team.
Girl 2: um, me too.
Girl 1: our swim team has over a hundred people on it.
Girl 2: um, my swim team only has three people… and it is really really far away…laugh laugh…um, in new mexico.
Girl 1: (without question or doubt) oh. that is a small team.
conclusion: Girl 2 is a liar… sometimes people do that
note to self: don’t lie

as big people our lies are complicated… but for the record… i can handle that which is complicated…i think... maybe i am just lying to myself?

i have nothing against prophecy spewing blind albinos



why? because i thought it would be cool... it was only $1.75 at the dollar theater...

my friend heather started cracking up when the blind albino emerged from underground and started blabbering prophecies... she laughed... i did too... she said, "i dont know why this is so funny to me"

time with heather makes even 10,000 B.C. totally entertaining... so i recomend it if you are too cheap for a real movie and if you can talk heather into seeing it again.

Wednesday, June 25, 2008



i take photos less than often... because i have dropped my camera more than a camera should be dropped... so do excuse the quality of the following photos...

a few weeks ago my little friend adam was baptized... he was born while i was on my mission... i dropped him once trying while trying to impress a boy... i guess the boy wasn’t impressed, because he is now making his own babies in another state... but little adam... i love little adam... little adam... named after his dad's best friend ... outside of relationships dad's best friend adam was my favorite kiss... he is not the same one who flustered me so much that i dropped little adam...

about baptism

i remember being baptized...i remember fighting with my family... i was pretty sure that i wanted a divorce from my entire family that day... but after my baptism i felt totally at peace... i tried to be pissed, but it didn't work... all of the irritation/frustration i had felt in the morning was replaced with peace...

i watched little adam on his day... while everyone else in attendance seemed completely swept up in a whirlwind of chaos, adam's countenance reflected that same peace... you can see it in his eyes and smile...

even if he doesn't remember what chums we were back in the day i still really love him... even if i threw him up and forgot to catch him... i am so relived that i don’t get that nervous around boys anymore...

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

this song passed through me this morning... effected me...

Carry Me Ohio by: Sun Kil Moon



sorry that
i could never love you back
i could never care enough
in these last days

her tears fell
on her pages
found me well on her words
i don't know what to do or say

wading through
warm canals and pools clear blue
Tuscarawas flow into
the great lake

riding
back where the highway met dead tracks
ground and now cement and glass
so far away

heal her soul
and carry her my angel
ohio

green green youth
what about the sweetness we knew
what about what's good, what's true
from those days

can't count
to all the lovers i've burned through
so why do i still burn for you
i can't say

sorry that
i could never love you back
i could never care enough
in these last days

heal her soul
and carry her my angel
ohio

children blessed
gather round the home she rests
so poor and cold in their midwest
moon and sun

flashes bringing on
my open eyes to lightning storm
the touch of mist felt soft, felt warm
on my face

graving dreams
a million miles ago you seem
the star that i just don't see
anymore

words long gone
lost on journeys we walked on
lost her voice is heard along
the way

sorry for
never going by your door
never feeling love like that
anymore

heal her soul
and carry her angel
ohio

Thursday, June 19, 2008

I am too tired for you tonight Mr. Moon


today i went to the park with my friend and her two dogs. a few other people were also at the park with their dogs. the animals were restless.

their restlessness reminded me that tonight is the full moon... a special one me thinketh... not sure..

but i have been so tired lately... so tired... too tired

is the moon doing this to me? i am too tired to even go outside and see it rise... sleep right now is more appealing...

but i will let it be remembered... right now... as i am about to sleep i will think of the moon and allow it to carry me to dream land...

good night.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Burundi Film Center


Some strangers blog that came up when I googled the Burundi Film Center.

Burundi Film Center’s short films.

I told people about it, but not too too much. Mostly because I hate this feeling I put on myself to be responsible for the entertainment of others… but it was really good! Wish I would have promoted it more.

From what I understand a guy from Uganda went to Burundi and started the Burundi film center. There hasn’t been a film made in Burundi since 1990 me think. He said that there are many people making films in Uganda, but no-one was documenting life through film in Burundi. The country has been warring since the 1972 genocide. There are many Burundian refugees in SLC that started arriving last summer from refugee camps in Tanzania.

But the films were not about war. They were about social issues that Burundians face every day. Poverty, Rape, HIV, death, birth, justice, love… It was great. The Center showed these films in the streets of Burundi where thousands gathered to watch. The film maker said that many people in Burundi are illiterate. By addressing social issues through film the population is educated about these issues where other resources are unavailable to them.

One short story was about an engaged woman who was raped. She feared that her fiancĂ© would no longer want her. Afterwards the filmmaker informed us that in Burundi some women are killed by their families after being raped because it is such a shame. So this message to an uneducated Burundian audience is HUGE!!! I am not saying all raped women are killed, but it does happen. So the film makers suggesting that it wasn’t the woman’s fault, and that a man can support his woman is beautiful. In the closing scene the woman is informed that she is HIV positive and her fiancĂ© holds her hand and the scene closes… The audience understands that life isn’t going to be easy, but they are going to do the best they can together.

I am really glad I went. And the Q&A with film makers and actors afterwards was enlightening… and… I am sorry I didn’t push it on my SLC friends more…

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Ode to Summer!!!




At 90 degrees yesterday it has finally arrived.

Reasons to love SLC in the Summer!

The Farmers Market at Pioneer Park every Saturday
Gallivan Center Twilight Concert Series
Movies in the Park
Bike Rides


There are more reasons to love summer... reasons that don't necessarily have web sites...

Like the fact that I rode a roller coaster for the first time in 15 years on Friday. It made me laugh, and mostly scream...

and after yoga and the farmers market I rode my scooter all over town in next to nothing and have the tan (sunburn) lines to prove it...

and I love that in the summer pop-cycles become a food group...

pic-nics... yard sales... 4th of July... camping trips... open windows at night... sunsets and lemonaid... these are a few of my favorite things!